I'm A Fierce Fat Filipina Diva: A Weight Loss Adventure: MOtastic: Five Years Later

Hello FFF Diva Fans!

Five years has passed since my last blog post. Life has definitely changed greatly and I come back to the blogging world for one thing: MOtivation.

Today, I stepped on the scale and I weighed in at 300 lbs. I thought to myself: "WHAT HAPPENED?! What happened to the gal who got healthier and took back her life?" As I was trying to run through every scenario of whose fault it was, clarity kicked in: "Life happened Maureen. Now it's time to get re-motivated again. Keep moving forward."

I decided to go back to the beginning of my journey. In 2007, I weighed in at my heaviest at 324 lbs. Today in 2016, I realized I was only 24 lbs away from that number. I found this FFF Diva Blog and started reading its posts from the beginning. Did I have a different mindset in 2009? In 2011 I was starting to gain weight again but I was trying to get it under control. Or so I thought.

I repeat: Life happened.

Key Highlights:

2011: I moved out on my own with the help of amazing friends.
2012: I relocated to my college town and started working towards moving my career back to Public Health.
2013: I got back together with my college boyfriend Donald (long distance too!). We ran the 2013 Pittsburgh Marathon (as in Pennsylvania).
2014: I got engaged. Chartered a Rotary Club.
2015: Ran the 2015 Tiburon FitBit Half Marathon side by side with Donald. Celebrated Filipino American History Month at the White House. I solidified my career in Public Health. #MoOnTheGo
2016: I got married in Pittsburgh, PA. Catholic wedding. Casino reception. California reception. Became President of my Rotary Club.
And a bunch of other odds and ends.

My health was no longer a priority. Other people, organizations, and things became a priority. However, somewhere along the way I forgot that I cannot help anyone or anybody else unless I put myself first.

It's my fault my husband got fat.

Two years before my husband moved to California to start our new life together he lost 80 lbs. Now it is roughly 2.5 years later and he gained it back and then some. He says it's not my fault because I never force fed him, but I do know we are a strong source of enabling each other. Maybe it's my Catholic guilt talking, but still I feel horrible about it.

Now that I married all I can think about is my timeline for having kids.

I have to publicly thank my husband Donald. We were able to have a true heart to heart conversation about children. Yes babies are in our future, but we made a pact - we need to get healthier together first.

If you made it this far down the blog post - thank you! I debated back and forth about blogging publicly again but I remembered what this community gifted me with: genuine accountability. I'm back and hope you can re-join me in my health journey in this new chapter in my life!

With love,

FFF Diva Mo